kadangkala~

kadangkala

gurauan itu sangat menyakitkan

kadangkala

senyuman itu sangat pahit dipandang

kadangkala

gelak tawa itu amat membingitkan

kadangkala

wajah itu amat menjelekkan

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sendanya itu ibarat satu penghinaan

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perhatian itu sangat mengganggu

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kadangkala

memang begitu...

woo wee woo wee

wee woo wee woo wee woo

bosan dowh.. hari ni hari rabu.. baru je abih org chem nye lab.. smengkol je.. bosan bosan~!! patutnye nk kene gi chem lab 2 plak tp kemalasan mengatasi segalanya.. satgi2 pun bole pegi... isnin dan selasa berlalu begitu sahaja.. masa yang sepatutnya dispend untuk kerja kerja eksperimentasi telah ku habiskan untuk aktiviti peniduran yang melampau! perlu ker? mestila perlu kan.. huhu.. jadual aktiviti ku semakin lama semakin rigid.. aku terkongkong! haha.. ape dowh bahse mcm bahse cerpen je neh.. x kuasa aku nk layan.. wat keje la weh! wat keje!

buku ku hilang?

buku ku hilangkah? di mana? tidak ku jumpa!!! tolonglah sesiapa, andainya berjumpa, pulangkan lah.. pulangkan.....

yang jauh yang dekat

di kala daerah itu sepi

dia datang berkunjung

singgah

mendiami kekosongan itu

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indah sekali

senyum itu

yang sentiasa terukir

manis di bibir

gelak tawanya

meriangkan

memecah kesunyian

daerah itu

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segala kata

segala ucapnya

bagai mentari

bersinar pagi

menyinari daerah itu

kesekian kalinya

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namun

bahagia itu

seketika cuma

kunjungan berakhir sudah

sepi kembali bertandang

kian jauh

kian sunyi

tiada kan dapat tercapai lagi

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entah bila

kan dapat kembali lagi

entah bila

kan dapat bertemu kembali

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tiada lagi

ruang di hatinya

untuk daerah ini

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yang jauh itu aku

yang dekat itu dia

my lovey dovey MSc project~??

hmff.. tiring? boring? annoying? no exact words can really describe my MSc project here in UTP hehe.. bosan dowh.. been doin' it since 14 months ago, yet nothin' special had turned out.. tempoh 14 bulan adalah tempoh yg agak lama la kot utk menyiapkan MSc by research ni.. dengan tahap progress yg sgt slow ni, rsnya i may take at least another a year to complete it.. nk salahkan sapa? mestilah salahkan diri sendiri kan.. sendiri yg malas!! sendiri yg bodoh!! huhu.. for the first six months i was doing my MSc it was without the guidance of my supervisor since she was under medical leave for the whole semester.. sakit lps bersalin.. kesian gak.. only had the chance to see her once a month.. tu pun had to go to visit her at home, nasib baik la dkt ni je haa.. the first progress report? i was really stucked up wif the comments.. the project was actually being rejected! can u imagine.. the whole semester's work was a waste of time.. i failed to convince them with my presentation.. demam lagipun masa tu.. demam teruk!! panas smp leh nk bgn.. tp sblm2 tu pun sbnrnye, xde la wat keje2 ni dan mende2 sgt pun.. hehe.. kn dh ckp td, sendiri yg malas.. dh tau awak tu bodoh, malas pulak nk stadi, malas nk baca buku.. keep giving my excuses for the unsetlled job.. actually there are lots of problem that are unforseen before.. so, last minute only i realized, actually this whole thing is not really easy for a graduate of second class lower like me to do it!! mungkinkah aku telah salah membuat pilihan? hehe.. byk sgt komen2 ni, isk.. dah la tu.. baikla pi jumpa supervisor bincang2 apa yang patut.. satgi dok mengadap mende blog ni, smp ke ptg pun x siap keja.. :P

bagaikan sakti~

lagu 'bagaikan sakti' by m nasir dan siti nurhaliza utk soundtrack file pgl is really like a magic (bagaikan sakti! hehe).. it really stunned me up (*winking*) sgt sedap didengar.. lirik sgt syahdu.. hehe.. look up for the lyrics~

alamak~!! alamak~!!! ari tu dh tulis lirik tu.. tp cane tah mana edit2 dah terdelete plak!! demit!!! nk kene gi carik lg skali la pulak.. isk isk..

"... jika ini hakikatnya, aku serah kan jiwa dan ragaku, menantimu walau sengsara, jika ini ketentuannya; jika ini hakikatnya, aku serahkan jiwa dan raga, jika ini ketentuannya, kau kan jadi milikku jua...."

(",)

ade 'current' ke x?

ade current ke x? hehe.. ni bukan current letrik kat umah tu.. hehe.. dis is about the current between a guy and a lady.. from the common islamic point of view (i mean what most of us usually know and usually think), shaking hands btw opposite sex is kinda taboo to the masyarakat especially masyarakat melayu beragama islam.. apa yg kita dpt lihat kini, di dalam dunia korporat kita, ramai je ahli2 perniagaan lelaki bersalam dengan wanita.. tiada pulak yang membantah atau memandang serong di atas perlakuan ini.. as for me, what i understand from some readings and taughts from my ustaz is, there is no offence of salaming guys.. salaming wif your uncles, cousins is necessary i think, untuk menujukkan tanda hormat.. lagi2 pulak mereka adalah muhrim kita.. bersalam dgn guru lelaki pd sy is necessary also.. kita menerima ilmu daripada dia, x salah kalo kita nk salam kalo dia pun nk salam ngn kite.. kita bole tau, xde de nk ada current bile salam ngn orang tua, ye x? salam dgn kawan2 lelaki might be not so necessary, sbb ape? kita pun xtau mungkin dengan bersalam ini kita akan dpt menyebabkan timbulnya 'current' di pihak lelaki itu.. hehe.. maybe we will be feeling nothing, but who knows what they feel.. jgn pulak kita saja2 je nk try salam sbb nk test ada current ke x.. hehe.. that might be so necessary la kot.. even by standing beside guys you can actually feel the current, hehe.. betul dowh.. tp mungkin bkn dengan semua.. ada sesetengah pasti akan merasainya.. hehe.. kenapa tetiba muncul topik ini? haha.. smalam tu la, ada kisah di sebaliknya.. hehe..

so, what do you about the hukum of bersalam dengan wanita ajnabiah?

ULI board

surfing (not the net la, the waves in the ocean la of course) is really not my thing.. but yet, last night's Ripley's at TV3 have totally change my perspective of surfboarding. suddenly i felt like trying it very very soon.. hehe.. this guy by the name jim weir have invented this genius surfboard thing from nilon and plastics that is foldable and easy to be carried out wherever you go.. when you wanna use it, just pump in the air with the pumping tools in less than a minute! jim loves this surfing things since forever.. he said that on transit, the board is very in the risk of being hit by another thing.. what i mean is, this surfboard, you know la kan, is very big.. up to 6 feet long.. it's not really comfotable to be moved around especially when you are on the vacation of surfing at all the beaches that you can find.. hehe.. this ULI (pronounced as oo-lee) (ultra-light inflatable)board has really help to get rid off the hassle of travelling with your board.. seeing the ppl in the tv surfing using this ULI board really get me teruja untuk mencuba.. nk beli? mesti la x mampu kan, although that he said the cost of the ULI board is cheaper than the conventional surfing board.. how much cheaper is it? 1 ringgit? 2 ringgit? hehe.. it costs in a range of USD139 to USD289! whatever it is, one day i would really love to try surfing in this ULI board.. kalo terjatuh dlm laut dan terhentak dek board ni pun x sakit beb, maklumlekan, mende ringan, dipam ngan angin... walaupun x reti berenang, takat timbul tenggelam tu kira bole la kan.. hehe.. isk isk.. x sabarnye~!! bestnye mandi laut!!

*tetiba teringat kat yulie pulak because her family called her u-li kat umah, hehe.. pis yulie~!!

menjejak kasih~

this thingy called friendster, have you ever heard of it? hehe.. sometimes we never expect that this kinda fancy websites might help me in searching some of our long-lost friends besides making new ones, of course la kan, that's what the reason why this thing was made up for.. hehe.. it's kinda funny though.. kadang2 hobi yang pelik ni (i mean surfing, it's kinda weird hobby, don't u think so?, hehe) dpt jugak membantu kite dlm mengeratkan tali persahabatan yang kian lama terpisah.. bagos betol.. hepi dowh dpt jumpe balik.. walaupun sbnrnye xde la nk msg2 sgt once dh jumpe tu, cumanya, seronot sbb dpt keep in touch.. mana le tau, if any of them wanna get married one day (dh ada yg kawen pun, x sempat derang nk jemput!! waaarrghh!!!!) or wanna invite us for anything, any kenduri or whatsoever, we have this friendster thing to help us out.. hehe.. keep in touch dear friends~ (",) shariza, fauzana, maksu~

sesuku abad telah berlalu

sesuku abad telah berlalu,

terima kasih Tuhan, atas kasih dan cahaya yang telah engkau berikan, dalam menerangi kegelapan pekat hidup ini.. ampunkan aku Tuhan, atas kealpaan dan kelalaian..

terima kasih Guru, atas tunjuk ajar yang sangat bernilai, sebagai pedoman hidup yang tidak tentu arah tujunya suatu ketika dulu.. ampunkan aku wahai guru budiman, atas kenakalan dan kedegilan...

terima kasih Ibu, atas kasih sayangmu yang tidak kan dapat terbalas.. akan kukenang jasamu dalam membina diriku menjadi seorang insan.. ampunkan aku ibu, atas kekasaran diri ini, kesalku tiada kan dapat hilang..

terima kasih Ayah atas pengorbananmu, mendewasakan aku, jerih penatmu tiada samanya dengan yang lain.. ampunkan aku ayah, atas keegoan dan desakan yang melampau suatu ketika dulu..

terima kasih teman, terima kasih adik, terima kasih kakak, terima kasih abang~ atas segala galanya.. terima kasih kerana sudi menjadi sahabat setia.. mengharung bersama segala yang suka dan segala yang duka.. maafkan aku teman atas kesalahan, sengaja dan tidak.. gurauan, senda tawa, tangis air mata kita bersama kan terus kekal dalam ingatan ku..

terima kasih semua... kini.. sesuku abad telah berlalu..

ogos 29, 2004

ordinary day

hmff.. another ordinary day today.. the same routine, punch in, sit, chatting, surfing, typing, lunch break, continue with chatting, surfing and typing, punch out! demit.. i wish i'm at home in front of the tv watching movies on hbo channel! giving a task to be completed in three days seemed very simple, yet very annoying if you don't have the determination and drive to complete it.. nak2 pulak if the work have been procastinate since last three months! doing the same thing for the last few months really stucked me up! pasni nk gi pasar mlm~!! nk mkn sate raza~!!! hope this suffering days will end by tomorrow, amiinn~

demam puteri gunung ledang?

hehe.. after the pgl the movie was released last merdeka day, it seemed that quite a number of my friends suddenly being very good in the malacca history! hehe.. it's good then.. now i realized that my friends are still interested in the malaysia history besides chatting on the net, and playing networking games, huh. :) this epic strory of the great love between hang tuah and this lady from majapahit (gusti putri retno dumillah) kept me thinking of it for few days.. haha.. the story was quite diffrent from what have been told and read before, those days at school time.. dulu masa sekolah pun i don't really like this subject called history because of my failure during the first test in form 1.. haha.. got really stucked up with this sejarah thingy.. what i can say is, this pgl movie is a great movie in certain aspects, the casts (although the sultan's teeth had a kinda dracula look, haha) , the props setting, the effect, the visualisation, and the idea of the whole story. however, the way it was presented was not really good as being expected.. the theme of the movie was 'cerita cinta agung' as we can see written on the poster, but as you watch it, we can't really see the keagungan of the cinta.. most of the movie showed on the pertelingkahan between majapahit and demak and how melaka wanna help majapahit from demak. tp, keseluruhan cerita adalah baik.. hehe.. tahniah to the producer, director, and casts! viva pgl~!!

opocot!! do we have to?

last two days, i went for a supper with my silat colleagues at a gerai in tronoh.. sedap jugak pekena roti puri skali2 ni.. the gulai was quite good.. there were 5 of us chatting at the table after finished having our meal.. the puri pakcik suddenly came over and wanna pick all the plates and glasses up.. unfortunately, one of the glasses picked up by his daughter fell over and broken! the makcik from the next gerai started tu melatah! i was quite shock.. the makcik seemed quite young.. and she kept on melatah with some really really 'good' words (need not to be mentioned here, haha). so the wife of the pakcik puri came over and start to sweep away the broken glass. suddenly she also started to melatah, and guess what, this time, more 'good great' words turn out.. demit.. i felt so surprised and yet still keep on laughing la of course.. ish, ish.. melarat sampai macam tu.. really can't stand it.. we walked away after the two makciks still having their 'good time' sweeping and laughing... hehe.. kadang2 mmg nk tergelak.. tp kadang2 rasa sgt sedeh sbb masyarakat kita ni rupanya ada yang mempunyai penyakit melatah yg sangat 'hebat' even in the new era of developing technologies.. hehe.. apa nk jadi?