hypocrite? self-defensive? stupid?

i got this from abgrizal this morning:

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F A M I L Y

I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
"Oh, excuse me please," was my reply.
He said, "Please excuse me too;
I wasn't watching for you."
We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said goodbye.

But at home a different story is told,
How we treat our loved ones, young and old.

Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My son stood beside me very still.
When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
"Move out of the way," I said with a frown.
He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.

While I lay awake in bed,
God's still small voice came to me and said,
"While dealing with a stranger,
common courtesy you use, but the family you love,
you seem to abuse.
Go and look on the kitche n floor,
You'll find some flowers there by the door.
Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.
He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes."

By this time, I felt very small,
And now my tears began to fall.

I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
"Wake up, little one, wake up," I said.
"Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree.
I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."
I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way."
He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay. I love you anyway."
I said, "Son, I love you too, and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."

FAMILY
Are you aware that if we died tomorrow,
the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days. But the family we left behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives. And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than into our own family, an unwise investment indeed, don't you think? So what is behind the story?

Do you know what the word FAMILY means?
FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU

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it had really made me ponder. actually i've been thinking about this thing few weeks ago. ttg cara aku handle kelas(kelas apa? semua kelas la. tau je kan kelas apa? hehe). ttg cara aku menegur adik² di kelas. adik² ni pun family la kan sbnrnya. sayang? mmg la sayang, nama pun adik². kerap jugak rasanya aku marah², salah sikit mula nk menengking. am i being a hyprocrite? or just self-defensive? atau mmg stupid? kesian. setiap kali abis kelas, aku akan rasa kesian pada yang kena marah. sbbnya bukan x bole tegur dgn baik bila derang wat silap, tp entahlah. kang tegur elok² pun x bole wat jugak. erm. letih². ada yg telinga kuali, hati keras, bole la thn. ada yg lembut (ke lembik?), terus lari. x nmpk muka langsung dah lepas kena marah. isk. garang sangat eh aku ni? garang ke? adeh. tolong!